**capital steez intro**

[Verse One]

The most fucked up era of my entire life

Was from 2008-2009

What if i told you if i contemplated murder or even suicide?

Shit crossed my mind at the time

It my 15th birthday out eating w/ my girls

Til i got a call, that ruined my whole world

Some punk motherfucker killed my best friend

Nobody knew who it was; too afraid to confess

He shot into a crowd and hit him

Didn’t even know who the fuck he was!

He was just a punk bitch on drugs

Wanting to cause a fight and fuss

I didn’t even get the chance to say goodbye, why’d you have to go?

Remember that one time we went to that party in montebello?

We walked around to find somebody who was actually out to use their phone

Remember when he hit that spot of the 105 by the blue line and we heard gun shots?

You told me stay flat on the ground, so we were on the freeway flat

For like an hour, had nothing to do but laugh

Every time i was sad, you were the one person who’d have my back

Little did that motherfucker know he was about to be a dad

And it happened to be the best guy friend i’ve ever had

I was crazy, insane, out my brain

Couldn’t even maintain to remain the same

Doing some crazy as thangs

My anger controlled my grief

Plus i tried coke and shit, so i didn’t sleep

Just cry and weep

Why the fuck did it have to be me?

I took my anger out on my family

All because of my grief and animosity

Hate is a strong word-

But i hate the motherfucker for making my best friend’s baby a bastard

Now i’m sitting in tears, just reminiscing over the years

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[Verse Two]

The only way i deal with grief

Is the same way i’m losing sleep

Up all night, i got demons to fight

Taking flight with all this anger on my mind

Grief in heart, liquor in my veins, just to maintain my life day to day

Don’t take life for granted

Be happy you’re livin, you take the chances and grab them

You got a life, be happy that you have it

Smoking blunts, crushing up e pills, sniffin’ lines, eatin shrooms

All bugged out, high as fuck, tagging in ya room

That ain’t the way to go

Almost lost my cousin that way

So please don’t do what they say

Be positive even if you’re feelin a little pessimistic

Cuz life is still there even if it’s negative shit