[Verse 1]

I take these pills to make me feel a sense of relief

And disbelief of the shit that's been thrown at me

I cut my skin to see how much it bleeds

I plead to see how much my hunger feeds

I cut my skin just to avoid every sin

I repented the infinite just to see if my life would win

But since then, it's been an insane ride

With no love and racing thoughts of suicide

Before I'd have looks, I'd bleach my hair

Or just cut it all off, and my skin while the knife is there

Where do I belong during the end of the song?

Not here, it's all hate and high takes, if I'm not wrong

I'm a rebel, but all my rage is still bottled

No love is my fault partially but these thoughts are just swallowed

If I could, I would sincerely apologize

For all the lies that have made our lives so melancholy-mesmerized

[Verse 2]

Do you ever feel like everybody just hates you?

I do, I can barely stand when everyone can barely take you

I've sufferred pain for the shit that I've said

I cut my wrist just for the bloodshed

Because it's the pain that I know I've always deserved

I'd rather bleed than hear hurtful words that are just reserved

It's a secret so deep that races thoughts unning head to feet

It seeps through but it's the darkness that my soul can never keep

It makes me want to weep when that's all I wanna do

But you never hear me say sorry when I was calling you

You insult me and make me feel like what I am - trash

I live in a trailer with a hurtful mother and barely any cash

We're poor with no money and I try my best to hide it

I can't take it anymore, so I'm bound by suicide

I justlook back to the happy memories

And I stop the sparks of "Electricity" electrically

[Verse 3]

I remember they'll never be back and they are so few

But that's what happens when so few people even know you

Spitting old school rhymes to get shit off of my chest

Showing that I've suffered so much more than the rest of the rest

It's a test of how much I can even withstand

I am mad but I'm still sad because it's just the thing that I can't stand

I've taken so much crap over the past four years

Drama's a bitch, but it makes me cower and tremble in fear

The end is near for the story that lasted so queet

I'm insulted which resulted to suicidal thoughts here

Sometimes I wanna grab the gun and blow my brains out

Or never drop a knife again and cut into my veins now

I steal pills and swallow them to give this feeling

Of slight happiness for once but it leads to more stealing

It's stupid to take drugs to get what I've never had

Happiness - but my life continues to be forever sad

I ignore the pain and all the false love

And remember it's all fake with no friends or fun stuff

I'll jump off a building so I can breathe one last time

Enjoy the view for the rest of my life as I rap one last line