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Devilish thoughts is just fillin' my mind

Sit in my room and I just don't know why

Got the demons beside and they feedin' me lies

Contemplating 'bout just endin my life

To take it or not I do not deserve this

They makin' me certain that shit is not worth it

What is my purpose I'm tired of searchin'

I'm losing my mind keep on feelin deserted

My outlook on life is the worst

I'm blessed with a blessing

My blessing is also my curse

Don't understand why I can't find my roots

'cuz I definitely came up straight from the dirt

Beat myself up over shit that I do not control

Willing to sell my own soul

For riches and fame

For bitches and money

Fuck facing a problem id rather be runnin'

Hoping this weed is so loud

That it's muting the voices inside of my head

Living for nothin the reason I'd rather be dead

And the reason the noose is surrounding my neck

My self esteem low to the ground so

I put on a mask its a shame

Don't be surprised when you In my position

And feelin' the same and you askin for help

With a gun to your brain

I'm disturbed sick in the mental

But down with the sickness

Resisting on grabbing the metal

Pathetic I'm hoping my hope is replenished

A menace like Denis

It never feels pleasant the feeling of being rejected

I'm fearin the fear of not being accepted

Neglection is worst when it's in your reflection

It's nothing a session could fix and I call it depression

Rather just hide in my shell

This shit ain't good for my health

My happiness rises from constantly thinking

Of thoughts of erasin myself

Id rather be dead I wish this was hell

I'd rather be scorching in flames

I'd rather be forced to be tortured

With pitchforks and turned into corpses

And mortified in fourty-four different ways

Look at me now I'm dead

Lookin at all of the blood on my bed

Look at the outcome of negative thoughts

And I'm hanging I'm dangling right from neck

This is what you do not want

This is the reason I hate me a lot

This the result of just losin connection

With all your surroundings

And this the result of them devilish thoughts