[Intro]

Struggling with a mental illness automatically makes you a greater burden to others and while most people may not see it; we do

[Chorus]

I need someone who can answer this

What I got to do to relieve me of the stress

'Cuz I’m dependent when it comes to meds

And I don’t wanna open doors to side-effects

Sick of pretending I’m okay, I've been praying for change

God I need some rewiring work done in my brain

I’m aware of the stakes I can handle the wеight

I’m prepared for the worst, lеt's rewire this brain

[Verse 1]

This past month I felt a pain deep in the trenches

Trying to find who am maybe find a consensus

All I do is eat beats just to piss off my dentist

I lit a fire underneath all my enemy’s benches

I took a dive, I started studying mental health

I know it runs in my family trust me I can tell

I know I got some anxiety running in my genes

Feels like my DNA is scattered to complicate things

Whatever, I'll throw my rope down I’ll go first

Let me record it while down here to prove I’m cursed

Took out my flashlight, I swear that I spotted some demons

Or maybe that’s my insecurities dressed to believe it

I need a doctor I need a counselor

Someone to force me out the window when they say "get out more"

Someone to kick me into gear when I’m debbie downer

A safety net when I’m on the verge of a spiral downward

Yeah

I need parameters like prison guards

My thoughts are violent like hitting licks and stealing cars

And I’m a joker, you better shuffle your deck of cards

Killing rappers, a decade later I’m still at large

Listen

My mental illness like an evil spirit

He’s unwelcome, uninvited, and incoherent

Look in the mirror, notice changes in my appearance

Somebody cure it my personality disappearing

I suffer from, chronic fatigue, feels like a disease

Always shaking 'cuz my mind is weak

Sweat inside both my shirt and jeans

And I’ll be lucky if I fall asleep

So if you can, you have a luxury

Medication, withdrawal symptoms walk like a giant

Spreading out like coronavirus

Depression hides like a prowling lion

They teaming up the devil just to form an alliance

They don’t discriminate nor have a bias

They feed off guilt if you’re alone or private

You build a wall but they sneak behind it

You kill 'em off down the middle, every head divided

You think you're good then they start multiplying

They trick your mind into think you’re dying

[Chorus]

I need someone who can answer this

What I got to do to relieve me of the stress

'Cuz I’m dependent when it comes to meds

And I don’t wanna open doors to side-effects

Sick of pretending I’m okay, I've been praying for change

God I need some rewiring work done in my brain

I’m aware of the stakes I can handle the weight

I’m prepared for the worst, let's rewire this brain

[Verse 2]

Heightened senses, my body loads up my defenses

My blood pleasure is running like a Ferrari engine

I wouldn’t mind if I beatin’ up with some knives and wrenches

At least then I’d understand why I feel the tension

Exhausting, I need a trip out to Palm Springs

Don’t call me a mix of rappers, I’m not a crossbreed

Just talk to a vet, hear what the boss thinks

Take your comments, and suck on it until it taste like a soft drink

Pissing, moaning, Fallon, Conan

Like it’s a joke when I talk about how my counseling’s goin’

I should pull a Mr. West, pack my things and move to Wyoming

Record a song in a barn, call it my little pony

Your mind is either your biggest fan or your worst critic

And by the looks of it, worst enemy is way more fitting

My body turns on adrenaline like it’s always kidding

Likes it’s a game for my body to keep the sweat dripping

Look

They compensate my anxiety just for babysitting

They amputate my sobriety with the jaws of envy

They aggravate my entirely with applause against me

Like entertaining society had the greatest ending

I’m flattered, I never understood the theory of mind over matter like it’s meaningless chatter

Some people told me don’t trip, it’s just another chapter

But I dwell on thoughts like how it ends or how I even got here

I bet you looking at me different now

Maybe you’re sympathetic or flat out indifferent now

I just vent on a microphone, I don’t do this for clout

Why pay a therapist when I’m doing the bulk of it now

Listen

Mental heath is a burden that people carry on

We don’t expect you to be coming back up if you drop us off

If you promise you’ll never leave, better pray to God

To give both of us the willingness to stay strong

[Chorus]

I need someone who can answer this

What I got to do to relieve me of the stress

'Cuz I’m dependent when it comes to meds

And I don’t wanna open doors to side-effects

Sick of pretending I’m okay, I've been praying for change

God I need some rewiring work done in my brain

I’m aware of the stakes I can handle the weight

I’m prepared for the worst, let's rewire this brain