[Chorus]

I lost myself

I don't blame nobody else

And I’ve drained my health

I don’t recognize myself

But you know my name, and you know my plans

I don’t want this world, you can have it all back

[Verse 1]

When I die it ain’t gon' matter the size of the coffin

I’d rather have gasoline poured over my carcass

We only pray when everything seems marvelous

Or give a little 'thanks' after the fruit has been harvested

But that’s what it’s coming to I've been doing music this is all that I ever knew

And people tell me quit or put efforts to better use but people are jealous they’d rather cry and be mad at you

Then do it themselves and I admit I'm afraid Imma fail

Scared to commit to a path that’s why I’m losing myself

Yeah

And that’s an ugly reality I go without weeks talking to God

'Cuz I feel like he’s mad at me

And I ignore the phone if you contact me

I need a moment alone, I need a moment to breathe

I wanted this world and all that it had

But I got something better, you can have it all back

[Chorus]

I lost myself

I don't blame nobody else

And I’ve drained my health

I don’t recognize myself

But you know my name, and you know my plans

I don’t want this world, you can have it all back

[Verse 2]

I tell myself have godfidence and believe he’s watching

I see it play out perfectly like I live in hospice

Somewhere I have no stress, possibly live in solace

Only to drown in my thoughts because I can’t stop it

My vibe turn the public audience off

Some say I get too personal or graphic in songs

But this what happens a monster gets backed in a corner

They want a thriller movie and instead, they got horror

Yeah

This music got me acting skeptical now, used to be confident now I’m second-guessing myself

Used to be proud of surpassing a milestone

Now I’m debating, was it really a challenge or was it set too low?

I used to feel rewarded like it was really worth it

Now not even a spark of happiness came to the surface

God I’m resisting urges, to say I lack the courage

That my music is meaningless, lacking in purpose

[Chorus]

I lost myself

I don't blame nobody else

And I’ve drained my health

I don’t recognize myself

But you know my name, and you know my plans

I don’t want this world, you can have it all back

[Bridge]

I ain’t go lie to you jealously got me acting out

The lust, the greed, the music, it's part of my style

I ain’t perfect my biggest issue's my mouth

We all harbor a chapter we’d rather not read aloud (yeah)

We all deal with depression in different ways

You wear a smile and pretend your life is a beautiful place

Okay, but I’m not fake like that

I wear my heart on my sleeve I know the cost and I embrace that debt

[Chorus]

I lost myself

I don't blame nobody else

And I’ve drained my health

I don’t recognize myself

But you know my name, and you know my plans

I don’t want this world, you can have it all back