[Chorus]

I just wanna relax but I can't with this feeling inside

And I can't, I can't, I can't be the one to decide

So I put on my face, and then I'll tell you I'm fine

And I'll make the choice to find the light

[Verse 1]

Uh, yeah

And I don't know when this will end, yeah

And I don't know how I'll descend, uh

But I know that I ain't going back to that old rap

So I know classics back then just ain't my friend, yuh

But the faith ain't here, and the rest is clear

Yeah I'm restless near, but alone I'm drenched in fear to be the best this year

Man I miss my peers, I'm lost inside my dreams but please just come back

I wanna go back to the past like I never started rap

Passions that I thought I lacked made a difference, now I'm selling tracks

Listen I want a new me, I wanna send all my apologies

Last year I had a friend base, now intimidated to talk to me

Friend-base now a fan-base, was it worth it?

Not a little bit

Probably just all my ego battled me till I'm losing it

Moving into new homes, so kudos but I'm new to this

I wanna quit but I'll never give in, music is my only sin

[Chorus]

I just wanna relax but I can't with this feeling inside

And I can't, I can't, I can't be the one to decide

So I put on my face, and then I'll tell you I'm fine

And I'll make the choice to find the light

[Verse 2]

I don't wanna play the victim but I'm contemplating my life

Yeah, my family ain't there for me 'cause money's what we bribe

So I'm forced to play the bad guy hoping that I'm on your side

But if I ain't sending money to the bank I ain't worth the love inside, uh

Look at me inside my eye and tell me that you love me more than money ever buys

Put it up inside a letter hoping that I better open up, I'm dead inside

I don't wanna be another man who never made the family look at in pride

But if I had it my I would never make a living off of music

And I tried to be the bigger man

Yes I can't afford to send my cash

But notice that I am the realist brother, son and friend

And I wish nothing but the best, I love you all until the end

But I can't handle being nothing but another band

I won't ever save your debt, uh

I'm nothing but a crutch, a savior

Wanna be the one that's there and never giving up, it's fair

I've wanted all the love, I'm here

And now I see it's clear

I'm chasing pain and now I don't know if I wanna be that famous, yeah

[Chorus]

I just wanna relax but I can't with this feeling inside

And I can't, I can't, I can't be the one to decide

So I put on my face, and then I'll tell you I'm fine

And I'll make the choice to find the light

I just wanna relax but I can't with this feeling inside

And I can't, I can't, I can't be the one to decide

So I put on my face, and then I'll tell you I'm fine

And I'll make the choice to find the light