[Intro: Andiroo]

Yeah, yeah, yeah

[Verse 1: Andiroo]

While I'm living like I'm in a different house

Everybody's living like their winning now

They ain't see the shit I go through every day to make a living

They just don't know when I'm down

Yeah, they see comments and the presents that I get

I guess that means that I don't ever get depressed

I'm pressed that I don't have a right to be upset about my situation

So, I hide myself from here on out

And, thеy're saying now I got an attitude

With the famе and name I don't know how to prove

That I ain't different now I'm only sad as you

Too busy being lonely, time for you

Ain't a thing so I just made a promise to

Never forget you made me this dude

So I'm thankful every time I'm seeing you, yeah

And I'm really sorry to my brother, sister, mother

It's apologies I never miss but I just beat myself up

And, yeah, I'm bleeding but I'm never seeing if I'm changing so I'm leaving

I'm sorry that I'm different, sorry that I'm living how I'm wanting no one making my decisions

And I miss the way I used to say that I just love myself every day but now I hate him

And they say that I be acting different now, I'm just careful with the people I'm around

You ain't really know who's there for you or who's about your money, if there's something more right now

You're making moves and everybody's jealous now

How did I caught up with this fucking crowd

I ain't sign up for the pain and rain it's making me complain about my life I'm ending now

[Bridge: 26 Hold'n]

Fuck, fuck

How do I put this into words?

[Verse 2: 26 Hold'n]

Sorry mom and I’m sorry dad

I ain't mean to be someone else who tries to be what they really can't

I ain't mean to have dreams in the hardest industry and without a plan

I was in a lot of pain, gun up to my brain tweaking off the fucking xans

Where's my chance

Where's my sympathy

I was losing my friends and that was causing me the hostility

But, I don’t get a fucking voice, no money equals no choice

I'm used to drinking my pain away, so I don't make no noise

Not one peep, no sleep, not a person cares about me

It's all about what they need, they want to take away what I dream

But, I ain't giving into negativity and being someone you want me to be

Imma ride my pain into real fame cause I see a lot of possibility

I don't want to grow into a man, I don't wanna grow away from you

Cause my mindset is on pain I feel like imma end up fucking hating you

My plan is not to be someone else and I hope you all can understand that

I can't do this music on my own, I need support to be what I imagine

[Verse 3: Andiroo]

How could somebody with so much attention be all by himself

How could the love that he's getting be nothing but detrimental to his health

How could he love all the praise that he's getting for being himself

Be the reason he's insecure so when it’s leaving he knows that he's never enough

So he hides away blocking out anyone offering help?

I just want someone to be there for me but I do not have anymore love

I'm picky with the ones that I be giving care to even though I can't afford to lose anymore trust

I beat myself up like I'm stronger than I really am so I prove to you that I ain't broken

I'd stop but I know I just never have figured out how to get up

And I'm sick of the battles that run through my head

Living the past open scars that have bled

Always regretting the things that I've said

Making my way to eternal regrets

I walk my depression and make sure it's fed

I could make the choice of religion and cleanse

But, I feel a little bit safer when I’m never happy so maybe I'll pull on the trigger and then I'll be

Just pretend I never felt the pain

With how I'm acting I feel so insane

I know I'm passionate about my past but it's inside my brain

Forget it now I shouldn't make excuses, or that's how my listeners end up in nooses

So I better be a positive influence, I'm a realistic person I know truth is

It's all about mindset but we're clueless

And I know shit can go wrong but we'll heal the bruises

And I know I might be down and feeling useless

But, in the end we're all okay and I'm here to prove it