Diver - Intellectual

That horizon we chased is drifting further away

And the blue of the sky is too bright to believe with this heartache

Stuck in a crowd where everybody around is frozen in place

And it's getting harder to breathe, but I'm diving in anyway

Maybe I'd be better off letting it go

And cut away this pain that is suffocating

But I know that it won't really heal me the way that I want

Even if everybody wants to be my enemy

I know that I've still got a light shining on me

Though I've sunk so far beyond its reach

It is so painful here

And I'm running out of air

Even though my lungs keep growing tighter

I keep descending like a deep sea diver

I just wanna clarify

If I'm even still alive

Until my feet touch the ocean floor I'll keep holding my breath

Then I'll breathe again

There's a map in my mind, keeps me tossing and turning at night

And when I'm all alone it will show me all the things I will never find

Thought I was strong, but once again I was wrong to believe that I might

One day be stronger than you, or at least put up a fight

Like a swan far from home, it takes flight

Floating away in the starry night sky

Through the waves made of pain it slowly started to rain

But I can never play believe and be someone I'm not

Stars are always stars but it's something I've always fought

How far can I go until I'm caught?

Weighed down by the anchor of shame and despair

I tried to call out for help — tried to send up a prayer