Insurmountable - Intellectual

Defeated, accepting it

Steeped in lethargy, inertia

Piling on the loss, and bleeding more

Nothing left to lose, when all is lost

This journey drags on forever

Methodically isolated

I’ll remove myself from the herd

Stronger alone, no, but free

Free from judgement, free from limits

Freed to explore the bottom

To thoroughly search the depths

Surveying and scanning the lower bounds

Nowhere left to go but further down

Once more alone, this worn out drama plays out once again

A constant struggle across time searching for a direction

Disease ridden pests flock in numbers, hoping to spectate

As I climb this insurmountable obstacle

None to rely on but me

Abject waste that I am

Rage rushes in but flushes out

Hollow now, as the ache returns

Never pleased

Never comforted

Never letting it out

It’s not worth it

Nothing can outweigh the pain of this failed existence

Achieving does not rid me of this infection of guilt and shame

Defiant to the end

Bound and gagged trying to come out alive

This pain fills

Me like a well

Boiling over

Threatening to spill

Facing a horrid climb

These chains drag in the dirt

Weighing down from birth

Involuntary gauntlet

I’d rather starve than to continue on living through this

Sick of trying to ascend while hopelessly burdened

Defiant to the end

Bound and gagged trying to come out alive

With facistic callous mandate

I’m driven to ascertain

The requirements for success

In the eyes of countless beholders

How I wish i could desert

This nonstop reckless pushing for a clean solution

There isn’t one

Choosing to suffer rather than give in

This climb will lead to our deaths

We never will be truly happy ‘til its over

And still we climb

Choosing to suffer and to persist rather than give in

Inch by inch I’ll climb, searching for solace

Searching for a handhold, hands bound all along

This quest for peace is futile

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