These dark waters so clear

So defined in my mind

Pulling deeper within

Haunting and driving mad

Unwanted but still here

All attempts are futile

Ebbing never flowing

Gaining in strength whenever opposed

Compulsively resisting these waves

Ritually defying treachery

Fight it back or lose control

Cycling out into absurdity

Negatively reinforcing pain

Reluctantly steer further in

In faint whispers and screams

This obsession rules me

Avoid, compulse, cry out

My voice but not my words

Built up walls and blockades

Knocked down by the tide

Infection just festers

Can’t cut it out or keep it in

Compulsively resisting these waves

Ritually defying treachery

Fight it back or lose control

Cycling out into absurdity

Negatively reinforcing pain

Reluctantly steer further in

To this place I do not know

Desperate to do anything

To find the shores of sanity

Ready to capsize and

Belong only to these waves

Blech

Hidden just below the surface

A flood of twisted urges

Constantly threatens to leak out

Unless consistently bailed

All of this weight creates such pressure

One of these days I’ll snap

Without much left to hold onto

This current will surely sweep me away