Effortless

Words & Music by Allison Crowe

I'm trying not to try so hard

Makes me wonder if it's really effortless

Or if I'm fooling myself?

'Cause if I have to put so much of me

Into trying not to care

Where am I then?

I'm lying

And do you see the way I walk away?

I never really know what I should say

So it comes out wrong

If it comes out at all

So I straighten myself out

I bring me back down

"Don't be ridiculous

You are so wrong."

But then I'm drifting

On a wave of thought

I get lost in the tides

And I can barely recognize myself

I don't mind

'Cause do you see the way I walk away?

I never really know what I should say

So it comes out wrong

If it comes out at all

So I try to act the way I would

If I was someone that wasn't me

But you wipe that away, don't you?

And I am falling down

I am tripping on words

I am out of my mind

You know, this is not like me

I'm not usually happy, I swear

And do you see the way I walk away?

I never really know what I should say

So it comes out wrong

And I turn my back

And I don't look back

I am unafraid...

...but really I'm just kidding

I'm terrified

And I think I like it

And I don't care if I look ridiculous

Trying to be effortless