Thinking back

On days

I was afflicted

Sugar shatter budder addicted

Had my

Blow torch

Everywhere I went

On the ascent

Take a snake dab

Thought it gave me

The gift of gab

Reality

My mind absentee

Just like I

Had been beheaded

Blind to the world

Gold star

Round my neck

Made me feel

Bourgeoisie

In actuality

No paper

Just an 1/8th of wax

Facts

Actin esprit

When my pride

Was a hyperbole

At this rate

20 years for my

Bachelors degree

Too obstinate

& misfit

To submit to advice

Could hardly

Bust a flow nice

But when I did

Where's the applause

Thought

I was Young Nas

Library

Of unfinished songs

But I was

Tight with the dispensary

Wonderin whether

I live to smoke

Or to spit

Wasting away

Drinking all day

Had to descend

I turned my back

On my best friend

Got fucked up

By myself

Just to overcome

Couldn't succumb

Had to stay numb

Judge everyone

Like I had a grudge

When the time came

All the jewelry gone

Everything to the pawn

Remember I

Thought I lost

My chance

Till I fought back

Relapse put

My mind on

Platinum plaques

Now im back

Better than ever

Now life

Ain't the same

Especially ever

Since I overcame

When life

Was forlorn

Now I'm airborne

Since my

State of consciousness

Got elevation like

A monk’s meditation

While puffin skunk

Feeling the funk

Yet my mind

Clear due to

The incarceration

Of my greatest fears

I’m the personification

Of utmost concentration

Just to satiate

My aspiration

Join the celebration

Channel my mind

To perform the divination

The hip hop gods evocation

Bars like incantations

I'm out this constellation

Exploration of the confines

Of the mind

Fascination with breaking limits

Formulation of a true emcee

No time for hesitation

Your soul’s infiltration

Flowing inspiration

The liberation from

Your minds prison

The realization

Of my potential

This verse came

To me in a revelation

Witness

The manifestation

Of my wit & finesse

The way these other

Rappers treat hip hop

An abomination

It was a time

For a retaliation

Feel the admiration for

My determination

Respect the beats decimation

No dramatization

Eradication

Of your doubt

See my vision

Not a hallucination

Witness the illumination

Of your imagination

Only my qualifications

Could create such sophistication

My insubordination

Of hip hop norms

That's why

I'm even better

Sober