Stay quiet
Stay small
Stay where they left you
I learned the language of closed doors
Breathing slow across the floor
Counting cracks above the bed
Memorizing what you said
Every warning dressed as care
Every kindness laid as snare
I was taught to hold my breath
Like silence somehow stops the threat
Don’t move
Don’t speak
There’s a sound beneath my ribs
Something scratching to exist
If I open up my throat
Will the past come flooding through
If I finally let it out
Will it sound too much like you
I’ve been buried in the quiet
I’ve been folded to the core
You can try to keep me under
I am not yours anymore
Never more
Teeth in the timeline cut in the grain
Pain got a pattern that repeats in the brain
Step where they told me stay in the frame
Smile on command while absorbing the strain
Low-level panic under my skin
Locked in a loop that I didn’t begin
Every red flag dressed like a friend
Every sharp edge filed to pretend
I kept the peace
I kept the pose
I kept it buried in my throat
Now the pressure finally slips
Something breaking past my lips
If I open up my throat
Will the past come flooding through
If I finally let it out
Will it sound too much like you
I’ve been buried in the quiet
I’ve been folded to the core
You can try to keep me under
I am not yours anymore
Never more
You called it love
You called it care
But love should never feel like this
I remember everything
You pressed the silence into me
Folded fear into my sleep
Taught my body how to freeze
Just to give yourself some peace
But pressure builds in hidden rooms
And buried voices still consume
You don’t own me
You don’t own me
Never more
Hear that ringing in the air
That’s the sound of my despair
Turning into something sharp
Something finally falling apart
If I open up my throat
Let the whole world hear the truth
I am done protecting ghosts
I am done protecting you
I was buried in the quiet
I was folded to the core
You can try to drag me under
I am not yours anymore
Never more
You should have listened
You should have known
Some voices don’t stay buried
Nevermore