The black rainbow drags me to the surface

Where was I

What was I doing

I may never know

But each time I get too close

It spits me out again

Sisyphus drowning in a kiddie pool

I know why I’m here

I’m trying to test my limits

I’m trying to see what feels right

(I’m trying to transform)

Will my voice sound like this next time we meet?

Will I make it past the black rainbow?

My dreams since I was 10 have been the same

Only now am I seeing they are connected to the same part of the world that makes up me

Where do I hold my fear?

I can feel it when I closе my eyes

But when I’m awakе it obliterates me

But the black rainbow doesn’t disappear

It’s not about destruction

It’s about acceptance

If I can’t accept the black rainbow

Then what am I even left with

Measuring things measuring feelings

How do we become one with our reality knowing the present will become the past

And that everyday life is a treasure

Even if the moment

Might go bad

A gentle thought

I’m getting distracted

And I’m back at the pool

Waiting for the rainbow to appear

Who am I even talking to

Who am I even

Uncomfortable

That’s who I am

Disconnected

Feeling small

Don’t notice at all

Myself in the mirror is just a physical reflection

Negative space is just another dimension