[Verse 1]

I used to be happy to create

But now I don't come up with ideas, I’m like "I'll wait"

I used to feel something every time that I made

But now I feel like I'm watching everything fade

[Chorus]

Getting tired of my exasperation

I really need an anxiety eradication

I wake up everyday and feel my great desperation

Feeling pressured by all of my great expectations

I said I didn’t know what was wrong with me

Well, I lied

And if I die tonight, I can't say that I tried

[Verse 2]

I feel drained, not sure if I can make another record

I should be the poster child for r/choosingbeggars

I want everything, but I want it a certain way

I wake up and know it'll hurt today

I don't eat breakfast 'cause I'm feeling too antsy

My friends think I'm more picky than Gordon Ramsay

And they're right then

Only feel alive when it’s night then, yeah, yeah

If I leave, I’m crawling right back to ya

Rose from my bed like I'm Dracula

Yeah, I never see the sun

Living life in reruns

Got a life I’m still tryna find the value of

Feel worked to death although I'm never busy

Got a secret life like I'm Walter Mitty

Ignoring all of my texts, I'm once again stuck in my hex

[Chorus]

Getting tired of my exasperation

I really need an anxiety eradication

I wake up everyday and feel my great desperation

Feeling pressured by all of my great expectations

I said I didn’t know what was wrong with me

Well, I lied

And if I die tonight, I can't say that I tried

[Post-Chorus]

Wanted to dress like a vampire but I never thought I'd live like one

I thought the style was cool, now it's gone too far

In 5th grade I romanticized depression

Life gives you what you put out everyday

So don't use that power the wrong way, the wrong way

[Verse 3]

Ay

I can't lie, each day gets better by a bit

But I'm still stressed by great expectations, call me Pip

Life's a joke and I don't get the bit

But each day I can see why I don't quit

Took the incorrect direction, yeah, I'm going the wrong way

Sit myself down, say “I'm making Thursdays 'please make a song' day”

I'm starting to think it's time to get serious if I'm tryna be a star, no Sirius