[Verse 1]

I change who I am every goddamn year

But I'll live and die by the same old fears

Thought time would heal

But it comes with complications

My twenties showed me independence

Built a barricade for my own protection

The archer aims its arrow on my necklace

[Pre-Chorus]

I can't believe we're five years deep

Only now I can finally

Admit that when you goI can't digest it

I need the air like I need you there

Here with me, and I don't care

Brick by brick, I'm losing my defences

[Chorus]

I feel it inside, I feel it inside

Gotta keep you alive

Now I feel it inside

I feel it inside

I feel it inside

I feel it inside

[Verse 2]

They say life makes sense when you hit twenty-seven

All I think about is going back to eleven

When friends aren't gonna overdose

I could point at the sky still call it heaven

Now I wonder why it was them, not me

I keep picturing all their families

Singing by the church's pews

With tears soaking through their shoes

[Pre-Chorus]

'Cause I've lost a friend, he was like a brother

Every now and then I still speak to his mother

Devastated, and I can take it

'Cause I'm terrified that if you get too close

I could lose you too, and then I'd know

The world is worthless without you in it

[Chorus]

I feel it inside

I feel it inside

Gotta keep you alive

Now I feel it inside

I feel it inside

I feel it inside

I feel it inside

[Bridge]

Sometimes I wanna scream

At the top of my lungs

For the moments I missed

But they've been, and they've gone

A few days, I spoke to my mom

About my Grandma's life

Where it all begun

She was cold from the trauma

Cut off from the sun

To survive, she dyed her dark hair blonde

But we look alike In it's our blood

[Verse 3]

Saw her every Sunday till I was seven

Faded memories think I repressed them

Her life was heavy, soon it was time

When the cancer returned

She wasn't scared to die

Stopped the treatment

She couldn't go through it twice

I don't know why

[Chorus]

I feel her inside

I feel her inside

Gotta keep her alive

Now I feel her inside

I feel her inside

I feel her inside

I feel her inside