[Verse]

I always wanted to do it big

That's why the Latin King Pres

Hip Hop and filthy politics

Allured me growing up

All these characters

Playing prototypes in my story

Through skill, or hustle

Campaigning

Or manipulation

Big was written on their poker faces

Pocket books

And praises

Praised by bystanders, haters

And fanatics alike -

It was contagious

The pull of man's worship

Always called me

But 6am consistently intrigued me

Jaime

Waking up from Sunday to Sunday

Consistently serving

Pulpit to the boiler room

Liquor store corner to the library

Spanish radio halls

To the sick halls of hospitals

Serving

Father of 4

Husband of 1

Serving, Uncompromising shepherd

To one of Chicago's 7 7

Serving, Father of the fatherless

Yet unsung servant serving

Every time I gravitated

To a definition of false manhood

His dynamic example left me undone

And everytime I sought

To wave off Christ

As a traditional religion

Jaime's supernatural way of loving

Undid my conviction

How do you front on what's real?

Grown man

Showing up to every

Sullivan Hoop Squad game - Real

The fatherless squad called him Pops

How could I front on real?

Instead of cadillac riding

To the parish

You'd see my father perish

Walking in worn down dress shoes

From Hermitage to Glenwood and back

Seminario, West Side, and back

Almost like back was his forward

And decrease was his glory

"A Dios sea la gloria" he would say

"You got to die to self always

In order to resurrect things."

Perishing

South Side, Pastor Ford

Pulled me to the side

Lion in his eyes

Told me

"Your's Jaime's reflection

Don't neglect it."

Honestly, I respected pops

But inside I wanted

Bigger things to mess with

Not pastoral stressing

Late night messages

Compassionate counseling sessions

Funeral blessings

And Gospel proclamations

Not to mention

Nor little pay grades

And counter - American

Materialism decisions

I wanted life big

Like Big

But Jaime showed me what life is

Big is all the little things

Most don't give

The pennies amounting to a million

Over investing a whole life

Give

Philippians 2 type greatness

Emptiness makes full - Give

The silent leader makes bigger waves

Through persistant ripples

That most big men miss

Live, Small and make God big

Pushing me to reflect

On my definition of success

Cause Jaime reflected

God's message of redemption the best

Which left me perplexed

On how few father's are

Actually Christ like present

And how I am undeservingly blessed

So when I look into Zion's eyes

May he see Jaime's refection

And in so doing

See Christ's Reality, Death

And Resurrection