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By Ajogu

Released on October 10, 2016

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[INTRO:]

From flesh up into glory

Some stories of cemeteries

I know ‘bout shadows that shifting

Stories told if you don’t know me

Battles fought, some wars lost

Kingdoms too, love’s cost

The prelude to glory, beginning and the end


[VERSE 1:]

Mom watching vigilantly

I called her vigilante

“Where you at?”, “where you been?”

That ain’t care if she ask me

Pops was a preacher man

Prior to that been a teacher man

I felt the life I lived they ain’t teach me

You ain’t never teach that man

Pops taught that mathematics

Which I thought was hardly magic

Least I learned “X’’ is a variable

I hardly gat it

Home had that “X” factor, maybe we could factorize

The varying degrees it burned with hell

I know my math is matic

Re-emphasizing the fact that my math is poor

Thanks to Sound Sultan for a classic

I can sing along

Still my curiosity ‘bout how a variable

Flows from a constant “K” of course

Seems like you build to destroy

I ain’t mean to bore you with my failing maths of a life

I was told love was the only constant

Which you needed in life

When you thinking you done found it

You cherishing what you finding

Math is playing in the background

You ain’t know that you just found ex

First texting “I miss you”

The first time love had kissed you

Those arms that wrapped around you

Swore they only gon’ please you

Now you did things that ain’t please you

Cos you said “I wan’ please you”

Then she said “I hate my exes”

Now love is starting to diss you, huh?

What’s the problem?

Bad mathematics

Feelings is fickle, they never been a constant habit


[VERSE 2:]

You think love is roses you don’t know Jack

And you might be sinking

Or love is spinning and making you dizzy

You might be drinking

Oh oh, we done broke up

Sleeping dogs (dawgs) all now we done woke up

Hanging at each other’s throats

Hate trying to choke us

Elevated emotions done got your hopes up

Been sober ‘fore love drunk

Drunk in love had me tipsy on a love song

Love sung to a lover when that wine is love strong

Wondering why they comparing feelings to some

Strong rum?

Cos that hang-over forever don’t last

She brought a headache when the feelings passed

We swore forever last week and half

The same problem different effect

I can guess the reason why you always called the “ex”

Cos the feelings of a man are inconsistent


[VERSE 3:]

Back to the point, well I ended up the ex

Least I can say it’s better than when you ain’t even the ex

You ain’t even know what this is

But then tell everyone “we friends”

You ain’t even know what need you’d be used to satisfy next

Sex don’t equate love, but it’s the only constant feeling

Like a DJ scratching her itching

Purity stained on ‘em bed sheets

Or else my banks is empty

This kind of relationship ain’t profit

You could fool yourself saying love ain’t investment

That’s to gain profit

But at least you gaining something

That makes you think “Worth it” ain’t perfect

This ain’t worthy

I can’t think of a perfecter way to word it

I been knew ‘bout shifting shadows

I’m the shadow at night

Cos the only time I had your attention

Was in the shadows of night

Plus I ain’t want my boys to see me

The deception wasn’t easy

False personality like a double

I knew how much they believed me

Believe me, those times had greatly told on my commitment

Surely getting attraction to walk distraction

Wouldn’t be something easy

Now I’m here talking ‘bout writing you a song

When I know you don’t even care

‘bout me writing you a song

But still I’m hoping somehow you finna be singing along

But by the time I was done with “Make Me Go”

Choc had been far gone

Shepherds missing sheep’s scattered

What you missing?

Don’t it matter that you looking to find what you had

Hardening you heart to what you will find?

You won me for losses

Life of goddamn bosses

Just so you got this

“X’s” variables for life

Only one constant is Christ

That’s the constant K that I find