[Verse 1]

I miss us doubting our lives

Equally cynical

Equally messed up in a variety of ways

I miss my self destruction it's the only thing that suited me

Rarely on the ground

You never hated me enough

[Chorus 1]

I'd take my dreams back

Anyway

We’re so young so naive

[Verse 2]

They say "be kind towards yourself"

But how can I be kind to someone who's treated me so badly

I’m stuck with feeling like I've met everyone worth meeting

Worth my time

To touch, to fall for again

[Chorus 2]

I'd like our first summer back

Anyway

We’re so young so naive

We never mattered

We were never an if

We were only a when

We were never an if

And I dreaded our when

[Chorus 1]

I'd take my dreams back

Anyway

We were so young so naive

[Outro]

We were never an if

We were only a when

We were never an if

We were only a when

We were never an if

We were only a when

We were never an if

So when?