(Chants)

The knowledge of the universe

But at what cost

Three headed hound in the mist where I was lost

The black dog

I reemerge from a black fog

Only to return with a backlog

Resurface all the memories burning

Soul traveling for centuries, learning

Old faces take me places I ain't never been

Where I'm naked in a chamber where the devil sing

Rebuild a broken brain and a hurt heart

Don't react to all the shaking in the Earth's core

Redirect the great equation so you birth art

They say it's all inside your head but that's the worst part

Do it like a master, soldier shit

How you move inside a flash flood

With every wrong to avoid

When you're pre programmed to be drawn to the void

It took a god damn miracle to set me free

PTSD from an NDE

Go to bed to sleep, but it's messing with my sanity

I'm still here but I'm questioning reality

Electricity hit the water with the sparks imploding

Life saved but I'm racing with my heart exploding

Feeling dizzy, feeling nauseous, feeling heavy

Feeling tortured, I'm recalling what I've buried

Mind scattered into several pieces

Carrying the baggage of these terrible secrets

Stumble through a lair of aggressors

Parents weren't there to protect us

Innocence being hung at the gallows

Little ones being clutched in the shadows

Confusion from events that were recorded backwards

Flashes of sights, smells, senses in distorted fractions

Regret, shame, judgement and ghouls and jinns

Hell is the color of human skin

And if you confront it then you can win

And if you confront it then you can win

Mom and dad fighting with the kids seeing

Delicate balance rocking as you risk being

Schizophrenic, by worldly definition

Unless you're one to follow worthy premonition

A bottle a day minimum

Lost our father to the void without a turn for any closure

Didn't let the same happen to our mother

All three of us tougher from this turbulent exposure

Virus to a seizure, she don't remember shit

Spinal tap, amnesia, she don't remember shit

Flat line for a minute when she hit the ground

Track marks from her IVs, she'd rip 'em out

Bed ridden for the next 2 years for the last few years

Of her memories to settle out

I turned to the rhymes and the ink and the beats

I'm a beast, self raised, I'm a feral child

[Right Panel]

Welcome to the cold and hatred

The bones are shaking

Your soul get raped and screwed

No one is going to save you

Alone and fading, and hopeless

Face the truth

[Left Panel]

This life made you bold, unshakeable

So unbreakable, no mistake, it's true

Your dreams and goals awaken this

Soul and greatness that no one can take from you

(Chants - Bridge)

("It's time for you to come home

To recognize that you are not alone

To understand that it's time for you to sit on the throne of life

Understand you have to let go of the pain you feel

All the strife

Understand, understand

Understand, understand

You have to let it all go")

Write your songs now you crazy child

Your light is not far to see

I'd show you now but it may be a while

This fight makes it so hard to speak

Look here, boy, what they've done to you

Sometimes it can be so hard to breathe

With all the secrets in the universe

This one

Can be ours

To keep

[Outro]

("Show yourself

Reveal yourself

I am not afraid

I'm ready to face you")

I'm the one thing you fear most

Or maybe I am both of them

Maybe I am all three

4, 5, 6, 7

Maybe if you don't pretend

That I don't exist

You can find me

Hiding in plain sight

But am I really hiding?

I am taunting you

In the broadness of daylight

I'm the one thing you can't face

I'm the one thing you can't chase

I'm the worst case scenario

I'm the ugliness there could have been

I'm the grinding of the teeth

I'm the violence underneath

I'm the cringe and the flinch

And the itch and the twitch and the glitch

I'm the frightened little bitch in you

I'm the self destruct button

I'm the worms in the bowels

I'm the much and the crud

And smudge and the blood and the stains

I'm the germs on the towel

Hey, and I make you stutter

Cool and you're calm, but I make you shudder

I am all of your excuses

The misuses and abuses of your faculties

I'm the crunch in your ears when the hunch reappears

I'm the flaws that you see in others

I am the stomach eating itself

I'm the call that you hear when it's doom that you rediscover

I'm the force and the strain

On the heart and the brain

I'm the puss and the drain

I am all the false recollections

Or maybe I'm the real ones

I'm the need for a rumor

I'm the seed of a tumor

I'm the growth and the parasite

I have been identified

("The love that you feel inside

You know more have to hide

I know the light that you seek

It's inside of you

It's everything that you want to do"

The magic words are squeamish osifrage)