My lows are lower than my bmi

Why?

Because I just feel like no one can relate

There’s a girl I really wanna date

I blew that chance might not even make it to a date

28th, june, birthday, in the worst way, no one contacts

Only thing i have is a disease that i contract

Not physically but mentally from my father

My mother cares but i feel like its better if she don’t bother

My girl is great why do i want another?

Nothing can satisfy me except maybe if i had a daughter

Never wore protection always said its cause i can’t cum

But the truth is it wasn’t cause my dicks numb

Its because i thought a kid would give me freedom

From this mind that I’m trapped in

Responsibility might turn me to a humin

But ill forever be this way, bmi going south

I wanna move to colder place

Instrumental break

Weigh about 110, 50kg if you in metric

No longer have a crew that i can rep with

Rip to norman you meant a lot to me and rip to josh

At least you both finally free

Sometimes i wanna join you both, but I’m scared

But if i keep losing weight ill be there sooner than later

Or in ICU eating fluids from a tube with a ventilator

Its not an eating disorder but a disorder of my eating

And writing this is kinda therapeutic

If my girl saw this it’d be life ruining

Knowing that i want to date another girl

But before we were together jess was above it all

And you knew that

Fuck it, screw that

She was just a girl i had a crush on

You stuck with me even through this rough storm

Would jess do that? i dunno, i doubt it

So why the fuck do i spend every day thinking about it