I think that I might love you if I let myself believe

I am not an obligation to everybody around me

And my brain is not a cage it is an opportunity

And my bones are not as fragile or as hollow as they seem

Cuz my mother in the hospital was laughing quite a lot

She said Doug this baby's coming whether you're ready or not

And I was born with all the good I was every going to be

And today I know it's all the good I'm every going to need

Oh my god

I've reached the surface

The waves have given way to glassy tides

And I walk by

It makes me nervous

Because my brain does not relay my thoughts in ordinary ways

And I know it might take time but I will learn to be awake

Because my dreams they will become a vive and not just an escape

And one day I won't be all alone without a soul to take

Oh my god

I'm treading water

For the first time I can see a better life

In the night

Its getting harder

But I have to try

Cuz I have to try

But I have to try

I have to try

I watch the night go by again

It said it couldn't wait

My heart has grown so cold

That my whole body starts to shake

As the wind picks up

The rain arrives

And summer starts to fade

And I'm here afraid

I am the author

I am all I have to offer

I am the gardener

And I will grow