[Verse 1]

And in the daylight I collapsed

In the distance between what I knew and what I knew had passed

I saw the blood and the skin upon the backs of my hands

I couldn't see them as my own

And I lay in the cold

Let go

[Chorus]

I think about those years

Time spent in fear

I'm glad that you're not here

I wanna make that clear

Who did you think you were to me?

A pleasant memory?

Can't you see?

You ruined me

[Verse 2]

And in the evening I'm alone

Where is home?

It's really not that bad

Given what I had

But the feeling hasn't gone away

And to this day

I don't quite understand

Why it felt so bad

I can count the ways that I know

Why it felt like hell

But I always feel like I'm alone

A feeble, misconstructed, histrionic shell

[Bridge]

I cannot remember all those years

They're not here

Somewhere locked away

Who's to say

What you meant when you touched me?

I can barely hold that memory

Without feeling guilt consume me

But I guess I was lucky

That you wanted me to be somebody

And maybe you were just lonely

I'll never know

I'll never know

[Chorus]

I think about those years

A life spent in fear

I'm glad that you're not here

Look, I wanna make that clear

Who did you think you were to me?

A pleasant memory?

Can't you see?

You ruined me

I think about those years

Time spent in fear

You're not here

Is that clear?