I question myself again

Sincerity has reared its ugly head

Panic sets in, I can't escape those words I said

These doubts are paralysing

My mind's devoid of rational thinking

It's hard to seize the day when my own nightmare never ends

Am I invisible again?

They don't listen to anything I say

'Cos these words are just words that just hurt and just turn you against this dying world

Don the white gloves of sympathy

Let your scalpel rescue me

Cut my demons out

And turn me into someone else

Someone who doesn't strike his feet

Who doesn't fuck up everything

These honest eyes are tired

Athena, where did I go wrong?

Fear not, child, for you've got heart

You'll find your way in time, look north

There's beauty laced in all you see

Just open your eyes and you’ll be free

Every time you find it hard to stand

Look above, you'll find an open hand

They say that life's a constant grind of try

But joy appears with your friends by your side

The reaper's beating down my doorstep

But I refuse to let him win

I'll wage this war on myself daily

I'll find the strength to love my sins

You've got to stop burning bridges

(I'm only being me)

Don't disaffect the ones that care

(But that's all I do)

Just be yourself and lights will guide you home

All will fall before your sword

(It's so damn hard to try)

I courted life but she won't reply