My reflection tells a story of how things have gone wrong
But my memories have told me all along
When I see what I want, I take what I want
But everyday there's so much to consume
But it's finally more than
It's more than I can abuse
Self medication is my own excuse
In desperation of this life I choose
Has the purpose of my life been wrong?
Am I really all these things I've done?
Once again I'm becoming a victim of me
This veil won't hide what I don't want you to see
My own betrayal
Although it all seems irrelevant to me
I should be able
To make myself see
All these things I can't make myself believe
A deep self loathing as the days pass by
Increased postponing that I can't deny
I've estranged my spirit from my body and soul
In anticipation of what awaits below
Has the purpose of my life been wrong?
Am I really all these things I've done?
Once again I'm becoming a victim of me
This veil won't hide what I don't want you to see
My own betrayal
Although it all seems irrelevant to me
I should be able
To make myself be
Who I want me to be
Who do I want to be?
There's not much left of me
My reflection tells a story of how things have gone wrong
But my memories have told me all along
When I see what I want, I take what I want
But everyday there's so much to consume
It's more than I can abuse
My own betrayal
Although it all seems irrelevant to me
I should be able
To make myself see
All these things I can't make myself believe