Soaking in my shame alone

Sulking about my existence

Decisions all reminiscent of children

Everything’s gone wrong

Constantly, incessantly, obsessively, and desperately I yell into the vacuum I created in my mind

I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up again!

I can’t take the pressure of life relieve me of this agony!

Nothing I will try to do will ever be enough

Never fucking living up to my expectations

Every attempt blocked by someone

Every time I take a step someone comes up to push me back

No one ever helps me up. They all just plot against me

Why would I ever turn my fucking back and give away all my trust to you?

Gambling all of the emptiness I’m desperately holding on to

You will never tear into me break into me want me to be better than dirt

The pain and strife, grief and plights have taken their toll

I’m not sure that I can handle another fight within myself

Raging through life and losing any amount of respect that I had built up with any person that I have encountered

I let them all down and I burned them too badly

I’ve lost the faith that anyone had in me