[Verse]

This is my suicide note, I woke up dead with a fucken overdose

Nah, shit is real, I can’t feel anything anymore, everything is closed, no open fucken door, they say I got everything a man dream of

Not what I’m dreaming of, not money, not even love

I just woke up from a long nap, opened my eyes realized I was doing the same lap, over myself

Level 1, 2, 3, playing the same game, just got sick of every fucking human being

Wanna leave this fucken planet never come back

Go to mars in some fucken space craft, but I can’t get that

Got this really big desire to kill myself, end my life cuz nothing is going to be well, all this fucken planets just fucken fell, down the road of fucken hell, there is no hope for a single soul

Throwing that shit across the fucken wall, haters wanting me to fall, I know

Took a bottle of jack, loaded my belly then loaded my gun

High and drunk, I realized what I should have done, what went wrong

I wasn’t fighting these faggots, I was fighting myself all along

A little voice inside of my head telling me “All this shit you passed through wasn’t rough? All the shit you had wasn’t enough? Actually, it was. You don't need no more. End it now. Close that door.”

So I took a gun, close to my head, looked up asking forgiveness, before I dropped dead

Yeah I know it’s kind of sad, but I did it

Closed my eyes pulled the trigger like boom boom

I woke up, I thought I was dreaming, here is my sister looking at me screaming

“Why Abdo? Why you left me? You said we are for life! You fucken promised me!”

My mom behind her speechless, the woman who always thought that I was a fucken genius

I looked up again there was no forgiveness, my family hopeless

Motherfucker killing each other for whatever is left

Friends none, cuz they never cared how the fuck I felt

Now everyone trying to screw everything I’ve built

Walls closing in again, screaming, “No one gave you a fucken hand!”

Then I heard the voice telling me to “Make the right choice!”

“Make it right or pay the fucken price!”

Than everything got dark and now I realize what I should've done

Opened my eyes, see the light, gotta be wise

Haters waiting for me to fail

Dick suckers gotta keep it real, keep the fucken hope, go ask help from the fucken pope

I don’t care, I don’t give a fuck, all you motherfuckers suck

And I’m stuck, inside your fucken heads

That’s why I’m never gonna be dead, that’s why I’m going to be legendary

That’s why I’m gonna stay here forever, as long as there’s a here, I’m gonna be here