[Verse 1: Mestizo]

Prisoner of the past, refugee of abuse

Self-inflicted inherited and everyone’s a victim

Till they lost all inhibition, stopped asking for permission

No cause for alarm, except when you had the fear beaten out of you by everyone you love

Compassion runs dry

And even in the sands of time, castles fall to ruins

This whole thing seems like a setup, one began for fools

And no one knows the rules, but act like we do

I hate you just because... blank, blank, blank

And word, word, word and attribute, attribute

Burning through the learning curve, smashing the avenues

And accepting different outcomes as murder becomes casual

To help steady the nerves, can't tell you 'cause it's tactical

But maybe I'm sent to serve something more real than Heaven

So tangible you could taste it, type of pain you could smell

When Ali said goodbye, he took my heart with him

I haven't been the same since; somehow, I'm getting stronger

He never knew his own power, I admired his existence

I still can't help but cry almost on a daily basis

My only escape from that well is to look on my sons' faces

Eternal light, saving graces, boy, it's hard to shake

So hard I get the shakes, it's so hard to face

I'm awake with suffocation, boy, there's nothing realer than suffering

Purpose of life and everything else is a bonus

[Pre-Chorus: Mestizo]

I'm never not grateful, just wish I stuck it out

I'm never not grateful, just wish you'd cut that out

I'm never not grateful, just wish I coulda dug you out

Grateful, just wish I coulda pushed the sun through that cloud

[Chorus: Mestizo]

And I will not fly away from you

Unless you've earned your wings

And I will not fly away from you

Unless you've earned your wings

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye for now

[Verse 2: Doseone]

It's been exactly harder

And I... I don't know where you are

Just that it's where I can't go, so

So alone I've been, though

Folding these colds like warm clothes

Imagining us both old

Doing my best to believe in souls

But at the reverse glow of losing you grows

I am destroyed and it shows

My best friend's life came to an end

And I broke where I'm supposed to bend

Came with a wound beyond mend

Beyond scars, beyond bars

No matter how carefully crafted they are

"Hard" is an understatement

This is impossible

To accept or face how it hurts

That thick ache that has no bodily place

No chest or stomach to grace

It's sizable pain without shape

But for you, my love is exactly alive

It's thousands of miles high

It pierces the sky

It shines, smooth on all sides

And it thrives

Godless, perfect obelisk

Of my sheer dauntless, bottomless adoration

And it honors this beautiful man

Huddled, I stand

And quietly howl out pains and plain, sustained vows

Because words don't seem to work on this perfect hurt

Unearthed after something so wrong

And I didn't wanna do this in song

But, that's our bond

And I may not know where you've gone

But our love is so strong

It do truly exist

Outside memory, photos, tracklists

I've lost before, but never this much

And that was all just stuff

Now, I'm utterly stuck

With all these "whys", "wheres", and one ugly "because"

I'm sorry I couldn't protect you, nor erect you

Castle walls that wrap exact around your health

I'm sorry I couldn't help

I would've fought wolf, kraken, or adder

To protect every shred of your next chapter

And now... there's just after

Where I sit, shattered

And remember your laughter

And just remember your laughter

And just remember your laughter

And just remember your laughter

[Pre-Chorus: Doseone]

And so I'll walk

I'll walk that doghawk

And we don't talk

We don't bark, we don't squawk

And so I'll walk

I'll walk that doghawk

And we don't talk

It doesn't bark, it doesn't squawk

[Chorus: Mestizo]

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye for now

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye for now