[Intro]

December Christmas party

Last year, don't get me started

New Year was so inviting

Compared to the one before it

December Christmas party (9TAILS, yeah)

Last year, don't get me started (Now)

[Verse]

I may forget what you had said right now (Now)

Later it'll hit my head somehow

I haven't eaten since I last laid down

Three days, no sleep, so fuck the bread right now (Now)

My people tell me it'll all work out

My brain had told me "check the past life out"

You were fucked up, now I throw up

When I compare it to my now, wow

I got some problems I should really sort out 'stead of running head down

Living piece of shit, you smell the fumes from my house

And it ferment 'cause I never go out, blaow

Bring us something else and I might take my lights out

It's not fair, for others, swear I care for others

Took me years to raise my head and share the air

With others, now I smother them, I aim for anti-sin

I got a lotta gin to drink before I'm whole again (Slurp)

I just wanna lay my body on the ottoman

And love you while mentally present there for all of it

Honestly, it's hard for me when rapping hourly for salary

And still take time to live in my reality

This heavy feeling always disembowel me

I'm spending hours fucking showering

Ayy, the love they show despite my faults is so empowering

I'm glad my soul is keeping close again

Yeah