“I always think of you whenever I’m in deep meditation because at that moment I feel like I belong here. In this world, I mean. I feel like I’m in it and I’m a part of it…

[I. Life]

Maybe it starts in your head, maybe it starts in mine

Maybe it doesn’t start at all, it just comes back around

Like a poem rhymes, it’s all the same but something’s new

Of course we never changed, we’ve just gained a different view

Keep in mind the circle is the simplest of all forms

If you’re cutting corners then you’re edgy

Noone gets me

Lifecycles are nothing more than wheels on the great machine

I know you don’t feel the same

Maybe I’ll be born again

We are all just theories and concepts in an empty space

We can’t even begin to see

The endlessness of energy

Surrounding us in motion, we

Try to guess our starting point

Truth is just that we don’t know

And sometimes that’s the worst

Life is just a blur

When you don’t listen

Miss it when you should’ve listened

Next time kiss her better, ah

Can’t afford to pay attention?

You can hurt but you don’t matter

To her anyway

I’d still choose you any day

Try again, I don’t wanna sound depressed

It must be the weather or

I’m a mess

I’m gonna be fine I guess

Noone died from loneliness

Hold on, wait a sec

I might just be wrong again

Well you better save me then

Yeah, I heard conspiracies

I’m poisoning the industry

While mixing words like alchemy

My career’s in infancy

There has been an influx

Of washed out thoughts recently

It only took me 20 years to tune into my frequency

Secretly my thoughts are burning up behind my eyes

I can almost see the light

Enlighten me, it makes me blind and

My mind is set, sail to the lost sea

I’ll always go with the flow for I wanna be free

Three’s a magic number, thirtythree’s divine

Why part the water when it can also turn to wine?

Why divide the nation when we fight the same battles?

I hope you don’t get shaken up by words, I hear your heart rattle

Partly I’m just saying this to take part in this stupid game

Another part of me never agrees with me, I feel insane

I hope to join your party but we’re kept apart, by design

I never held a gun but I’m also called 45

All my mistakes must be immortalized

To show that anyone can change, if they only try

Wouldn’t it be nice to know where we all come from?

Or whether there was any sound at the start, umm…

I can’t be a visionary if my vision isn’t clear

ACT. DO. MAKE. Bitch, Why are you still here?

Yeah, I’ve been told before, I should be more behaved

The rules always change, but based on whose beliefs?

We are all the same

We all make mistakes

We all love ourselves

We all hate our lives

I’ll stand for peace ‘til the hate’s dissolved

For the Self in me is the Self in all

I remember when they used to bully me

I remember when they used to make my life a misery

I remember when they used to listen to Eminem

And burn my shit

They’re the reason I believed that everyone who listens to rap must be a fucking dick

Oh how the tables turned or maybe I’m a dick

Amadeus with a pen, it’s only fair I’ll work until I’m dying sick

I know they will never hear me tell you this

But that’s okay

I only hope that God forgives

I don’t know if I can tho

I can maybe understand

But hardly so

It’s better to just let it go

In my final moments before it’s time to die

I’d welcome it like a friend with you on my mind

Playing over all the memories that would make me cry

(Sigh), I have your phrases memorized

You can always live inside my soul, even if you hate me now

I’ll keep you warm, you’ll turn into a butterfly, it’s crazytown

Please recognize that I could never make this all up

It’s been so long

And I’ve learned so much

So I feel tired

I’ve been lied to

I would die

Or i would like to

I am burning

I would drown too

Just for you

Or just for my own good

Yes, I would

If I could

Bring you back a piece of my soul

As a guidebook

Frankly I could

Use it too

Words I could write music to

I was all black now I’m new

[II. Death]

I’m not too clever but shit it’s like I have two brains

'Cause everytime I listen, it switches to some another flow

Tell me that you’ll never go

Tell me that I’ll never die

Tonight I’ll try to go inside and meet you

And we will cry

Ah, why is it that I’m controlling?

I could have the world and I know I would still be fucking lonely

It’s like I’ve lived before and done this a thousand times

Call me what the fuck you want, it’s fine

I don’t mind

I’ve never been shit

But I’ve seen shit

In my mind late at night

I could write a thesis

On the demons in this brain

Jesus

I don’t wanna say this

But

I have lost who I once was

I’m in pain, I just woke up

I’m insane but I want love

I don’t wanna say this

But you’ll never find none

If you’re gonna act like that

Act like a dickhead

Act like me

I’ve always loved you deeply still I could not commit

It ain’t hard to fucking tell I’m a piece of shit

Maybe I’d be lying if I said my soul wasn’t dying

Same old story, yes, some people change, some don’t

I don’t know which one you are, I don’t know which one I am

I don’t fuck with you, I don’t fuck with anybody new

I’m not tryna be mean, I just kinda wish I knew

Who I was or who I was supposed to be

My future seems so far away

But it’s here in a minute I’m

Not ready for it

I

Don’t wanna kill myself but fuck, I might

Maybe it’s the shit I like or

Maybe it’s the thoughts that keep me up at night

Nevermind

Respect is earned but

It’s hard to trust in this world

People give you their word

Who knows what that’s worth

Maybe you heard, maybe you haven’t

I promise you now, hate will never get you into heaven

If you believe in something you will take a stance

But no one deserves to be hurt, I hope you understand

It’s hard to be honest when I don’t trust you fucks

It doesn’t matter what I say to you, you only care about it if I cuss

Well, maybe I am dying

I don’t know if you are honest, I don’t know if I’m lying

Maybe I’ll be crying after I told you to go away

If life is such a tragedy then why don’t we just call it play?

I don’t fuck with you, I don’t fuck with nothing new

Don’t take it personally, I don’t like telling the truth

I just always thought that secrecy is part of life it always comes with it

Privacy was always on my mind because I’m lost within

But when you lose sight of who you know you’re fucked because

Hearts will break and they don’t ever bleed until there is a cause

“You will mean nothing at all', I'm no longer comfortable, hold me tight or let me go

You like to learn from your mistakes, well here’s a lesson I suggest you study hard

Keep thinking you had it rough

'Cause noone ever loved you 'cause you shut them off, what the fuck?

Can you even hear yourself? You sound like a stupid kid

Oh, shit, nevermind

Just don’t say you’re not impressed

First impressions never last

Noone gets a second chance

Wrote it down in 2010

Teach me how to write a sentence

Teach me how to hold a pen

Maybe then I’ll find a way to understand my inner demons

Inhibition’s acting up

Anxiety fucks me up

Makes me think of every situation where I ever sucked

I wish I could tell you how I really feel

I wish I could tell you what I know is real

Tell you ‘bout my biggest fear

I just don’t know where to start

But I can say that I am here

And I have changed, yeah I have changed…

[III. Love]

Please find me a way to love myself and love someone

Give my all to them while keeping some then love some more

Mind, body, soul, my heart is my mind control

Listen now to the record of my broken soul

Look into my eyes, see, I can weep but cry no more

I repeat my lines so what? I have lost my mind for sure

Every time I talk to you is like prayer to a divine being

Even God responded to me more lately, I’m just saying

One day I woke up and somehow became a new man

Too bad I still love you just like I loved you then

Yeah, I bought a lotta shit

Funny, I still feel like shit

I’ll just write down everything I want to say to you and then I’ll call it art

Sorry if you’re sick of it, trust me I am too but I just can’t afford another heart

'Cause when it comes to you I find it hard to find the words to use

I still managed to write an album or two for you

I had to tell you this, I wanna try every day for you. Try to be better, try to grow, try to listen, try to understand, try to help, try to be there. With you, for you. Always

I still see your blushed face every time I hear the Dark Side of the Moon

And there’s like a thousand other songs that I can’t even listen to

Every day’s so difficult, I really don’t know what to do

I miss you so fucking much and I just wanna talk to you

What if one day you’ll say ‘I’ll wait for a sign, if he writes then I’ll talk to him’

And I don’t write? I can’t risk that

It’s that simple, yeah

I don’t think I’m dead yet I still feel buried

Keep my style varied, I regret my life choices

I’m superior now, I promise

And yeah I’m honest, well, that is great news

I can focus on my music maybe let loose

You can only sample yourself when you’re this good

Guess I’m not modest , I know I’m so screwed

And I’m just a loser, well, I mean I love you

When I fall asleep I feel so alone though

I’m still paralyzed next to your soulstone

I feel like a time-lost menace

Doing some for penance

Gods only cry for most broken poets

You know it’s in genesis, it’s all about your presence

So be here now ‘cause there is only the present

It will be depressing if you ain’t gonna stay

You may be the priestess but I don’t wanna pray

Mayday! I’m lost in the memories

You’re so safe in my soul it’s like a treasury

Even if I shine with the flows and the melodies

I can’t lie, I still feel your energy

Life’s all waves, it comes and goes

We learn to ride with the highs and lows

I would rather die though, before the waters rise

Tell me that the earth will be fine without the sky…

I’m not dead yet I still feel alive

My heart’s on fire, I regret my lies and

I’m superior now, I promise

Yeah I’m confident, that’s just a bonus

You can always focus on my music and then let loose

I will lose myself when I’m old school

Guess I don’t make sense, I know I’m so screwed

Remember I’m a loser, well, I guess I lost you

I ain’t good at losing ‘cause I rarely do

Telling me you hate me doesn’t make it true

I am losing sleep though, you know it’s over you

It will take a few more nightmares to get over you

‘Cause everytime you feel something, I swear I dream it

I wish I had a ticket to your dream land, I’d redeem it

I mean it, it seems like I’m bound to you

How do you keep my heart on a chain like that?

Baby, I don’t say that lightly

And to take you way back

Likely I won’t even get a feedback, that’s the payback

If you’re gonna leave then can you also leave my mind?

Leave behind the space... for your gemini

I can only think of you whenever I pick up a pen

Never had another friend, now I plan to be your man

And when the summer ends, hold your hand and love again

Maybe then you’d understand I’ll always tryna make amends…

… and since you are also a part of it, we are one. No matter how far away you are. When I think about you, I am at peace.”